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My dad's dad died. I actually like my dad now, have for a while, but I'm still not very close to him and probably never will be. But I was very close to my Grandpa Cox. A week ago today I was in the hospital waiting for him to recover from his heart surgery. He never did. He never woke up. Funeral was on Saturday, I took the day off work to go to it. And yeah, by the way, the day after he died I was called into an orientation at Lincoln's Challenge in Rantoul, where, the following day, I had my first shift as a dishwasher. I work Thursdays and Fridays from 6:25 am to 12:55 pm, Saturdays and Sundays from 12:55 to 7:30.

Back to my grandpa's funeral. Went pretty good, as far as funerals go, though there was some breaking down from friends and family, myself included. Toward the end, though, the empty-headed pastor Jim Vance (acquaintance of my grandfather's) had insisted on decided he'd toot his horn by giving a Sunday morning-esque sermon that barely mentioned my grandfather at all. My grandfather had written out what he wanted for his funeral long before he passed. Preaching a sermon was not on the itinerary. We didn't make a scene, but when he tried to conclude the event, we decided to get back on track and, much to his dismay, several of us got up and spoke, myself included. We're very spiritual people, my family and I, my grandfather was a pastor for 18 years. But a funeral is not the place for a church sermon, it's supposed to be about honoring the memory of the person who's passed. And that's what we did, moronic pastor aside. Trying to let that one go, but it still irritates me.

Sunday morning The Tardis died for the final time. That's what I call my car, though I don't think I've ever mentioned that on here before. My dad wants to use some of the money my grandfather left him to get me a better car and consider that his farewell present to me. My grandmother and my dad are still having a hard time dealing with the loss, as am I. For the time being, I'm driving my dad's car and he's driving his dad's truck. Hoping I start getting good news that actually feels like good news again. Just give me some time and I'll be okay again.


S.D.
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Emenim
  • Reading: Two Cheers For Anarchism
Stuff has happened. Got a job as a dishwasher at Lincoln's Challenge in Rantoul, have to be up at four a.m. and leave at five to be there at 6 and clock in at 6:25. Also, my Grandpa Cox died on Tuesday night; still dealing with grief over his loss, he entered heaven before the rest of us were ready. Not that we would have been ten years from now, either.
Still have no job, but am waiting for a place called Challenge Unlimited to finish going through their bureaucratic motions and decide whether I have the disability I claim to or not (they only employ people with disabilities). I am also still waiting to hear about the progress of my application to School of Kingdom Ministry. In the meantime I took Shannon's sister Kerri to Clinton today to get her state I.D. renewed, stopped by Wal Mart so she could get some shampoo she needed, and to check and see if they had X-Men: DOFP The Rogue Cut, which they didn't.

This weekend I am going to Chicago with my small group friends and one of the nights we're there we are going to a place called The Geek Bar, which sounds exciting. This will be the first social event I've been able to attend with my friends this summer since the Avengers movie, so it's a very big deal to me and to them.

Also, I had another vision last night. This one was much shorter and much simpler than my last one. It was an image of a painting in the "fireplace room" of my church. The painting showed Jesus embracing a dress-clad male crossdresser and there was a caption under it that read "God loves the crossdressers." There is no such painting anywhere in my church, so this was not a memory of something I had previously seen. In fact, I have never seen such a painting anywhere in my life. I don't know if I'm supposed to paint this picture myself and submit it to my church or if the painting itself was merely meant as a symbol, but in either case it strengthens my resolve to do whatever it takes to become a pastor. I really feel very strongly about this and am growing impatient with the slowness of the overall process. Any prayers for God to help me learn peace and patience with my situation would be appreciated.


Sincerely,

Sydney Darkblood
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Shellshock, by New Order
  • Reading: Anarchism (almost finished with)
  • Watching: X-Men Evolution
I may have finally developed anorexia. And Shannon keeps threatening to smack me for it.
"The time has come to reap all harvests. I am the reaper. I am Paintball."
My dad's dad died. I actually like my dad now, have for a while, but I'm still not very close to him and probably never will be. But I was very close to my Grandpa Cox. A week ago today I was in the hospital waiting for him to recover from his heart surgery. He never did. He never woke up. Funeral was on Saturday, I took the day off work to go to it. And yeah, by the way, the day after he died I was called into an orientation at Lincoln's Challenge in Rantoul, where, the following day, I had my first shift as a dishwasher. I work Thursdays and Fridays from 6:25 am to 12:55 pm, Saturdays and Sundays from 12:55 to 7:30.

Back to my grandpa's funeral. Went pretty good, as far as funerals go, though there was some breaking down from friends and family, myself included. Toward the end, though, the empty-headed pastor Jim Vance (acquaintance of my grandfather's) had insisted on decided he'd toot his horn by giving a Sunday morning-esque sermon that barely mentioned my grandfather at all. My grandfather had written out what he wanted for his funeral long before he passed. Preaching a sermon was not on the itinerary. We didn't make a scene, but when he tried to conclude the event, we decided to get back on track and, much to his dismay, several of us got up and spoke, myself included. We're very spiritual people, my family and I, my grandfather was a pastor for 18 years. But a funeral is not the place for a church sermon, it's supposed to be about honoring the memory of the person who's passed. And that's what we did, moronic pastor aside. Trying to let that one go, but it still irritates me.

Sunday morning The Tardis died for the final time. That's what I call my car, though I don't think I've ever mentioned that on here before. My dad wants to use some of the money my grandfather left him to get me a better car and consider that his farewell present to me. My grandmother and my dad are still having a hard time dealing with the loss, as am I. For the time being, I'm driving my dad's car and he's driving his dad's truck. Hoping I start getting good news that actually feels like good news again. Just give me some time and I'll be okay again.


S.D.
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Emenim
  • Reading: Two Cheers For Anarchism

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Simyona Deanova
United States
I'm pansexual and genderfluid. Also, emo/punk with high-functioning Autism. Religiously, I'm a Christian Mystic.

By the way, this picture update is not an indication that my gender identity has changed. I'm still genderfluid. I've just got shorter, more punky hair now. In the new pic I have spiking wax in my hair and liquid foundation softening the features of my face.

Current Residence: F.C., IL
Favourite genre of music: Could you be more specific?
MP3 player of choice: I don't now, nor will I ever own an MP3.
Shell of choice: What's THAT supposed to mean?!
Skin of choice: ?
Favourite cartoon character: Garfield the cat
Personal Quote: "Money cannot purchase honor." -Fremen saying
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Kajm Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday!
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2014
thank you. Sorry for the delayed response. I've have connectivity issues since Thursday and am currently using a family member's computer. I'm hoping to have the issue resolved soon.
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a-l-connor Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
Sorry to randomly pop in without any prior introduction, but I happened to noticed that one of your favourite drawings here is one titled "Here Comes the Bride." As this picture includes me, so to speak, I couldn't help but contact you... 

Do you by any chance know "someone" (an internet troll, character in many different respects, in all kinds of stories, etc...he was a lot of things) by the name of Fredrick? He also went by Freddy, and would've likely taken the last name Macvarian. I'm looking for this person, but have yet to find any trace of them other than via this image. Hopefully you can help me...
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
I don't think so, but it's probably been a while since I faved that drawing. And I mostly pay attention to the art itself when I fave things. I hope you find this person you're searching for though. Sounds pretty serious.
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a-l-connor Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
it was for a long time. the person i'm looking for actually was the artist that drew that, but his/her (its confusing) account has since gone quiet for years. i've been trawling the internet looking for any account of theirs, but thus far this is the closest i have come. *sigh*
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
I'm sorry to hear that.
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Mushu-XIII Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2013   Photographer
I Am No Longer Dead! ;D
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2013
Yayyy!!!!
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Mushu-XIII Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013   Photographer
So How's DaddysGirl Been? :)
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
Mostly frustrated, but with occasional happy spots.
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