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I have so much time on my hands until my car is fixed I have finally started playing runescape again. But I made a new account and have a totally different character. He is male, he is called Mighty Simn, has a spiky purple mohawk and wears a sort of lavender dress. I needed that escape again, I guess. I mean, what the hell, my brother is playing WOW again, so why not? Besides, I missed this place.

Yours truly,

Simn.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Reading: Paul of Dune/Emerson's essay on Swedenborg
First Interval has been entirely rewritten, though not reposted at the moment. And Chapter 32 has been cut from the story. It may be rewritten, or I may just renumber the chapters from there on, it really depends on how the revising of the chapter a couple chapters prior to it goes.


Yours truly,

Simn.
  • Mood: Questionable
  • Reading: Paul of Dune
I Couldn't stand it any longer. Sadly I do not have the ability to go where people can see me while I'm wearing it. I look forward to being able to do that again, but alas it cannot be today.


Simn
  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Reading: Paul of Dune
  • Watching: Frank Herbert's Dune
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Contentment is elusive
Can it be illusive?
I am taught that it is attainable
Do I believe it?
Contentment seems a luxury
Affordable only for those with whom society is itself content
Tempting is the glittering blade
That whispering sheen
The cring of metal as I pull it from its sheath
Do I plunge it in?
Do I fall upon it?
Can contentment lie here?
Can solace?
But strength and hope must prevail
Where is my strength?
In whom is my hope?
In Him
Where is He in all my suffering?
He must be near
He is never far
Do I eat the blade?
Shall I kiss the Reaper?
Should I dance with Death?
To fall on the dagger
To spill the blood and breath my last
So easy
So painful
So simple
So dull
So pointless
Why bother?
Who needs contentment?
Perhaps it is just a word
Describing a feeling I’ll never feel
And yet I hope
Life is cheap
Society a bore
In Him I place my trust
What have I got to lose?
The Black Psalm
just one of those days
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I need to get out and go somewhere, all dressed up that is. I need to feel girly, and I need for other people to see me looking girly. It's been too damn long! But my car isn't drivable yet. God damn life is crappy sometimes! I hate feeling isolated and trapped in boy clothes. I don't completely hate boy clothes, but some days I just need the freedom to be girly and when I can't get it it hurts! Stress was so much easier to deal with when I was insane. Also when I smoked cigars, but there are some people in my life who I know would find it easier to forgive me if I went insane again than if I started smoking again.

Yours truly,

Simn.
  • Mood: Hysterical
  • Reading: Paul of Dune
  • Watching: The Boy In The Dress
I have so much time on my hands until my car is fixed I have finally started playing runescape again. But I made a new account and have a totally different character. He is male, he is called Mighty Simn, has a spiky purple mohawk and wears a sort of lavender dress. I needed that escape again, I guess. I mean, what the hell, my brother is playing WOW again, so why not? Besides, I missed this place.

Yours truly,

Simn.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Reading: Paul of Dune/Emerson's essay on Swedenborg

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daddyslittlejanegirl
Simyona Deanova
United States
I'm pansexual and genderfluid. Also, emo/punk with high-functioning Autism. Religiously, I'm a Christian Mystic.

By the way, this picture update is not an indication that my gender identity has changed. I'm still genderfluid. I've just got shorter, more punky hair now. In the new pic I have spiking wax in my hair and liquid foundation softening the features of my face.

Current Residence: F.C., IL
Favourite genre of music: Could you be more specific?
MP3 player of choice: I don't now, nor will I ever own an MP3.
Shell of choice: What's THAT supposed to mean?!
Skin of choice: ?
Favourite cartoon character: Garfield the cat
Personal Quote: "Money cannot purchase honor." -Fremen saying
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Kajm Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday!
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2014
thank you. Sorry for the delayed response. I've have connectivity issues since Thursday and am currently using a family member's computer. I'm hoping to have the issue resolved soon.
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a-l-connor Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
Sorry to randomly pop in without any prior introduction, but I happened to noticed that one of your favourite drawings here is one titled "Here Comes the Bride." As this picture includes me, so to speak, I couldn't help but contact you... 

Do you by any chance know "someone" (an internet troll, character in many different respects, in all kinds of stories, etc...he was a lot of things) by the name of Fredrick? He also went by Freddy, and would've likely taken the last name Macvarian. I'm looking for this person, but have yet to find any trace of them other than via this image. Hopefully you can help me...
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
I don't think so, but it's probably been a while since I faved that drawing. And I mostly pay attention to the art itself when I fave things. I hope you find this person you're searching for though. Sounds pretty serious.
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a-l-connor Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
it was for a long time. the person i'm looking for actually was the artist that drew that, but his/her (its confusing) account has since gone quiet for years. i've been trawling the internet looking for any account of theirs, but thus far this is the closest i have come. *sigh*
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
I'm sorry to hear that.
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Mushu-XIII Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2013   Photographer
I Am No Longer Dead! ;D
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2013
Yayyy!!!!
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Mushu-XIII Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013   Photographer
So How's DaddysGirl Been? :)
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daddyslittlejanegirl Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
Mostly frustrated, but with occasional happy spots.
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